The revolting optifast stage

I've spent the past few days on optifast and have never tasted anything more revolting. No wonder people lose weight on this program as you really don't want to drink the stuff. I will admit that the bars aren't too bad but the shakes and dessert are just funky tasting. Oh well I've dropped a kg since starting it.

I have mad a mega set back during the time I've been on the liquid diet in that my a doctor claimed that the lump under my arm was lymphoma but thank god he was extremly wrong and it turned out to be an infected gland and after getting that result tonight I've sliped up and having a couple of drinks altho it is a total no no while preparing for these blood tests.

Must get my butt into gear over the next few days because I do not want anything to stop this surgery from happening. It is my one chance of creating a healthly life and ensuring that I get to see my kids grow up.

D xx

The 1st appointment

Well today after 12 months of saying I'm gonna........I actually did. I had my initial consult with Mr Belmay at The Avenue and after getting over being told i'm morbidly obese I accepted it and moved forward. I weighed in at 163.4 and have been given a goal weight of 90kgs (but will be more than happy with 99kgs). It seems soooo far away but I believe in my heart I'll succeed. I ended up in tears during the consult when I was told if I don't have the surgery I won't see my kids grow up. I must make this work. My kids are my world and I have to make sure that I'm the one that gets to raise them and see them grow into beautiful adults.

Tomorrow starts the Optifast for 2 weeks before I have my blood tests to make sure nothing is wrong with it and that the surgery happens. I have ben given a surgery date of Thursday 13th of August and will make sure it happens then. I don't want to have to wait another day.

D xx